surprised!

Surprised!!!!!! (20100220)
In this night, the world spinning around still… no matter how it feels, I can’t resist how loosing someone really is hard… emptiness, beyond spaces and cold hearted such kind a harsh for me…..
No matter what, I have to face it. Whatever rude it is…. how much pain it caused, and when it solved over by…..
It is not “I’m counting on you” anymore, I prefer stay quit…. ‘Cause spaces can’t easily shorten…. Because trust will never take a quick time to advance…..
I do believe that you are not mine….. You are not forever mine…. And I’ll never forgive your entire have done to me.
Spaces….. It surprisingly when I found myself got depressed just because of you.
Oh my, oh my……. It can’t help…..
Mom, I do want to cry…. I can’t resist….
It is not pain…. It is death!!!! But I can’t cry….. Dear my written prince there….. Can you here my trembling voice???? There’s no way I can fight for…. Who will care???? My only hope is we can meet each other…. So that I can release what I’m worrying about…. Dear my prince, how can it be???? I don’t understand…. How can it be easily to crush the beautiful line between us????? I don’t want to be betrayed! Because they such kind a brat that can’t understand me!!!! They don’t know how big my brave built in a night to greet them! They totally DO NOT know!!!!
And I do understand obviously that it is easy to let me ruined…. Pieces to pieces, spot to spot, hair by hair!!!!!!!!!!!!! It is NEEDLESS!!!!!!!!!!!!! I really want to grow this heart red….. I want nobody but me!!!! They are not deserved for this! Zettai ni dame!!!! Kusooooooo~~~
My destined prince, it surprised me when I can’t hold on…..
Should I die???? °